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I haven't slept at all in days
It's been so long since we've talked
And I have been here many times
I just don't know what I'm doing wrong

What can I do to make you love me
What can I do to make you care
What can I say to make you feel this
What can I do to get you there

There's only so much I can take
And I just got to let it go
And who knows I might feel better
If I don't try and I don't hope

What can I do to make you love me
What can I do to make you care
What can I say to make you feel this
What can I do to get you there

No more waiting, No more aching
No more fighting, No more trying

Maybe there's nothing more to say
And in a funny way I'm calm
Because the power is not mine
I'm just gonna let it fly

What can I do to make you love me
What can I do to make you care
What can I say to make you feel this
What can I do to get you there

Love me..

Dear Diary,

Again, i have learnt a very deep sad experience in my life. God.. what an awesome one. You really have your way in educating your son here.

I have been packed with training these two weeks and throughout the course, i have also personally encounter things in my life. It's not a testimony but it's more to a diary for myself to remember. Forgiveness i have seek. Another chance to repent i has appealed. It doesn't seems to on my side.

Terrible nightmare has strike me out! Boom!! I realized that it was a dream. My dream. Have been having a nice, comfortable and great dream all this while. It could be better. It could ended well. But, my hand has again ruined it once and once and once...

Throughout the vocabulary that i have learn in my life, i'd managed to capture the word of "I" only. Too much of self-centered. Too much of "I think". Too much of "MY opinion". These has again bring myself into the worse nightmare i had in my life. How wish if this was just a dream of my dream. I wanted to wake up. I wanted to change. Have been thinking of changing. But, is "thinking" sufficient? ACTION is the word.

When can i learn how to change? When can i really learn to wake up? How many time more should i fail to feel the pain? How many time more i need to be slapped till i wake?

What a lesson.

Me aka Hamburger

Recently, we have received a handful of resignation letters from a team of sales personnel in my company. Sad news came to my mailbox after my training in town that i need to meet them one after the other. Hence, needed to block my calendar in doing the exit interview with those resignees. Haiz...

During the survey, i have received lots of complain and un-satisfaction especially on salary and fringe benefit portion and of cause we do received compliment as well, but naturally, bad is always more than good. Other than that, other adverse remark such as bad management, low incentive, heavy workload and etc etc etc..were added into the listing.

Started to ponder... "Hey!!" i was wondering in my heart. "You were not pinched over for the employment right?" "We did not force you to work with us right?" "Neither did we attract you with our salary or incentive scheme right?". Then, why out of sudden complaining that our incentive is low and salary is not up to par? It's your choice to work with us and it's a mutual agreement in the first place but why it ended up with all this hoo haa and complains..? So un-believable.

Really wanted to tell them, if we raised the salary / incentive, we will end up losing your service with the Bank as well because competitor will be doing the same. Suddenly putting myself in my management shoe, about.. how much i could raised to retain your employment and how high i could give not to forget, how long we can continue to give in?!

What a contradiction thinking as myself also always complains of the low salary scheme. Is it a sign showing me that it's time for me to move on as well?

Does this look familiar to you? Thiger, the doggie in the pic is expressing it's love and miss. Have you ever been looking out the window panel / your house front door hoping and wishing that the one you miss will appear in front of your very own eye?

Have you ever barked.. uops.. i mean sighed and loss your mood over the love one you miss?

This picture was actually taken when Thiger bark and bark and keep on looking outside of its front door. At that point, its love impressed me and.......

Just got to knew about it yesterday is that.. today is a special day for someone as today is her birthday according to the chinese lunar calendar.

Since i'm not around the town.. and thinking of how to compensate her.. i'm thinking of.. why not just order pizza delivary?

Have you guys received pizza's as birthday cake? I believe this should be fun.... especially it is eaten with fried chicken from the store........ but... the moment i recalled on one incident.. i put a pause on my thought..

Hehe... then.. what should i do? what should i do??

Therefore i decided to google for an answer.......

And.. drum rolling.... da ra... have decided to just put up a birthday dedication here to her.... Happy Birhday......!!

Hey!!? What's the laughter? Since it's mentioned chinese lunar calendar ma... of coz this cake la.. and.. psssspppp.... it's her favourite, i guess.. :)

A day to remember.

While everyone is busy-ing with their daily routine report, work-load, office phone calls, scheduled / unscheduled meetings and the extremely fast-pace surrounding, time racing and hectic not to forget unfinish-able task on the very first day of the week.

I am here sitting, in contrary, with a calm and relaxing mind, having my white coffee ice with soothing music and in a quiet and chilling environment alone here.

How great if this can be happening in my life.. i mean.. for the rest of my life. What a "seh yi" environment i am in now at this moment. Chilling room as if i have reserved the whole cafe, soothing jazz music accompaniment and not to forget the free Wi-Fi service that available in this place. Life is like the song we always heard from the TV... the "Unforgetable"...

Ironically, happy moment like this is just for a short term. Sit-ed less than 15 minutes, i was called by my girlfriend that she is now ready for lunch. And, it mean.... i need to leave the cozy environment, finished the unfinished drinks and stop using the free facilities that provided.. the saddest part is.. have to leave the town after lunch as i have a long distance bus to catch. Sigh..

But anyway... the day will never end easily.. as... Sushi King!! Here we come!!! yuhooo....